Late Night Thoughts on Longing and Dread

A meditation on beauty, horror, and the ultimate Object they both point toward

Longing and dread. Yearning and horror. These have always, since birth, been the contraposed energies that have driven my life, the motivating forces that have determined how I instinctively feel, think, speak, and act. They are the dual perspectives that have shaped my outlook, reactions, and relationships. Not always on the surface. Not always acutely. But always in the background, residing at the root of things. Breathing. Calling. Infusing everything.

Perhaps you share this state of soul, too.

Here’s how it feels: