“ Maybe we’re all writing—and composing, speaking, religion-ing, art-ing, science-ing, working, whatevering—in search of the flashpoint of stillness, when we will realize that we don’t have to do it anymore, and that we don’t even want to do it anymore.” Was this your experience, Matt? If so, how do you reconcile it? This has been and still is (to a slightly lesser extent now) my experience… and then also how to not just go sit on top of a mountain! I’d love to know more, if you’d care to share. Here, or you can email me at keena@keena.ca
Yes, I have indeed reached points where it became apparent that what I was seeking through my creative efforts and actions was actually that "flashpoint of stillness" in which I wouldn't feel the need to do such things anymore, but would rather just exist, just be, just sit in silence. What I keep cycling and circling back around to is the fact that the effort-filled approach to writing and creativity is what generates this desire to give it all up. The effort to create from the standpoint of the dream of separate personhood causes stress because it is motivated by the desire to accomplish or gain something. But the dream itself, this sense of separate perspective, is just spontaneously arising. It's here without any effort. So the ideal, I keep re-realizing, isn't silence and stillness that appear as such on the surface, but the silence and stillness of recognizing, identifying with, and resting in the pure being-awareness that I actually am, and from that standpoint watching whatever wants to happen just happen within the appearance.
Wow! Thank you! Yes, this resonated deeply. I am in this "zone" for a lack of a better word right now, where there is this endless being and just the desire to be that. Then I'll flick back to my small self/ego who is suddenly worried about letting this Big Self take over and do nothing! LOL "How would we pay the bills?! Everything will fall apart if we don't keep our **** together". Even though this was NOT my experience in the Void. It's amusing now to watch, but for awhile there it seemed absolutely paralyzing. It does seem in my experience, too, that the effort-filled approach does cause the desire to just not do all that anymore. I had not realized that until I read your words. Thank you!
I take great encouragement from your words that the Big Self can lead the way, and ego-self can relax, surrender... and it IS all here without any effort.
Thank you again, Matt. I really appreciate your insights!
“ Maybe we’re all writing—and composing, speaking, religion-ing, art-ing, science-ing, working, whatevering—in search of the flashpoint of stillness, when we will realize that we don’t have to do it anymore, and that we don’t even want to do it anymore.” Was this your experience, Matt? If so, how do you reconcile it? This has been and still is (to a slightly lesser extent now) my experience… and then also how to not just go sit on top of a mountain! I’d love to know more, if you’d care to share. Here, or you can email me at keena@keena.ca
Yes, I have indeed reached points where it became apparent that what I was seeking through my creative efforts and actions was actually that "flashpoint of stillness" in which I wouldn't feel the need to do such things anymore, but would rather just exist, just be, just sit in silence. What I keep cycling and circling back around to is the fact that the effort-filled approach to writing and creativity is what generates this desire to give it all up. The effort to create from the standpoint of the dream of separate personhood causes stress because it is motivated by the desire to accomplish or gain something. But the dream itself, this sense of separate perspective, is just spontaneously arising. It's here without any effort. So the ideal, I keep re-realizing, isn't silence and stillness that appear as such on the surface, but the silence and stillness of recognizing, identifying with, and resting in the pure being-awareness that I actually am, and from that standpoint watching whatever wants to happen just happen within the appearance.
Wow! Thank you! Yes, this resonated deeply. I am in this "zone" for a lack of a better word right now, where there is this endless being and just the desire to be that. Then I'll flick back to my small self/ego who is suddenly worried about letting this Big Self take over and do nothing! LOL "How would we pay the bills?! Everything will fall apart if we don't keep our **** together". Even though this was NOT my experience in the Void. It's amusing now to watch, but for awhile there it seemed absolutely paralyzing. It does seem in my experience, too, that the effort-filled approach does cause the desire to just not do all that anymore. I had not realized that until I read your words. Thank you!
I take great encouragement from your words that the Big Self can lead the way, and ego-self can relax, surrender... and it IS all here without any effort.
Thank you again, Matt. I really appreciate your insights!