When I started writing in my early teens, there always came a moment I experienced nearing a sort of threshold of darkness. I shrank from it. I didn't dare cross it then. Later on, I got more courageous, and let something spur me on. I called that my daemon... He was in control. I wasn't. The result was that - around age 33 - a whole collection of beginnings burst from me, shards of a mirror I was not yet able to puzzle together. But my mastery was growing. I was able to focus on one 'shard', which turned into a long story. This story expanded into a novel, which grew and grew. A fellow novelist suggested I split the work into two parts to make it more manageable for myself and for my readers. To my surprise I saw that this bi-partite option was underlying the whole thing. This gave me wings and I finished part 1 in 2016. A few months ago I noticed that I was writing the big climax to a part 2 of a trilogy, and that the double (eu)catastrophe which caps the whole project could not be fitted into this part I was writing... I finished part 2 two weeks ago. I started the whole project in 1996. Through all those years I have let my daemon lead me until a certain point, at which I took over and led him. In this way I have seen into and survived multiple abysses.
When I started writing in my early teens, there always came a moment I experienced nearing a sort of threshold of darkness. I shrank from it. I didn't dare cross it then. Later on, I got more courageous, and let something spur me on. I called that my daemon... He was in control. I wasn't. The result was that - around age 33 - a whole collection of beginnings burst from me, shards of a mirror I was not yet able to puzzle together. But my mastery was growing. I was able to focus on one 'shard', which turned into a long story. This story expanded into a novel, which grew and grew. A fellow novelist suggested I split the work into two parts to make it more manageable for myself and for my readers. To my surprise I saw that this bi-partite option was underlying the whole thing. This gave me wings and I finished part 1 in 2016. A few months ago I noticed that I was writing the big climax to a part 2 of a trilogy, and that the double (eu)catastrophe which caps the whole project could not be fitted into this part I was writing... I finished part 2 two weeks ago. I started the whole project in 1996. Through all those years I have let my daemon lead me until a certain point, at which I took over and led him. In this way I have seen into and survived multiple abysses.