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Rob True's avatar

It's funny reading this. I've often been accused of being lazy. I've always been this way, since childhood. I didn't get on well with school, so I did nothing and left school with no qualifications. Everything I know is self-taught. I only ever did anything if I felt like it. Since leaving school, I worked, self employed (on and off) for 20 years. I didn't work for 16 years. And in the 20 years I worked on and off (I was self employed), I worked for 4 months and took 3 months off, so really, I probably only worked 11 or so years (I'm 52 now). I learnt to write age 40 and a couple of years after, my books were in bookshops, traditionally published. I will do something well if I want to. I completely refurbished my house with no money. Probably worth £150,000. Through sheer will. But I never cared what anyone thought of me, so I had no problem doing nothing. I always had visions, since childhood, so I use these for inspiration to create. But if nothing's coming through, I don't care. It don't matter. I ain't got nothing to prove.

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TJ Price's avatar

Have been wrestling with this particular issue myself for going on months now, a sort of Jacob-versus-the-angel situation, and have been praying for dawn. Your thoughts on this struggle are much appreciated. (for statistical information, this is the post of yours which finally convinced me to subscribe here, though I have enjoyed (and recommended widely!) your Course on Demonic Creativity in the past, as well as read and enjoyed much of your fiction. thank you)

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